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I am really starting to grapple with the notion that my days consist of: feeding the baby, changing her diaper, cleaning her up, doing dishes, pumping, and doing some laundry. As I'm sure most of you know, I didn't quite expect to be living the stay-at-home-mom life quite yet, and I am still coming to terms with it. At the end of the day, all I can really say is that she will live to see another day ... that's it. Because somedays I don't even get a shower.
Case in point?
Today when Josh got home, he asked: "Did you take a shower?"(Cuz my hair looked wet)
My answer: "No. My hair is just that greasy."
Honestly, it's all a little unfulfilling at this point, seeing as she doesn't even really make eye contact with me.
So, I have decided to start prioritizing a few things that are unrelated to the baby -- I need to do a couple of things for my own sanity every day. Although nothing can really be unrealted to the baby anymore: my emotional, physical and spiritual health will have an impact on her.
I am quite the dreamer, so usually my goals are ... shall we say ... ambitious. But, seeing as showers are a triumph these days, I am trying to be a bit more realistic.
So, the three things I want to do every day are:
1. Meet with God
- I have a tendency to have way too many expectations for spending time with God, which usually just leaves me feeling like a failure. No grand expectations this time ... I may only whisper a desperate plea for energy, or sing a worship song while feeding the babe. Or I may spend an hour in incense-gilded prayer. Either way, I will meet with Him.
2. Use my mind.
- I have watched a lot of TV on Netflix the last few months ... like a lot. Like all of SYTYCD, all of Mad Men, all of the Bachelorette, quite a few documentaries, and two seasons of Friday Night Lights (so far). A girl's got to do something while pumping, or when nursing takes an hour. But it sure isn't workin' out my brain. So whether I complete a sudoku puzzle, write a poem, or read a challenging book, I will not let my mind become mush.
3. Take care of my body.
- I already know that I am not going to start training for a marathon anytime soon .. or ever. But I want to make an effort to do small things to take care of myself ... like go for a walk, do lunges around the kitchen, or eat carrots instead of pudding. And I want to take great care of my diabetes EVERY DAY.
Tomorrow marks day one ... anyone with me?